Unpack, unlearn, rebuild.
Had a panic attack this morning, that wasn’t fun. Forgot how uncomfortable and scary they are. I’m too lazy to dig deep and unpack the cause of my anxiety lately. Hmm, I don’t think “lazy” is the word, maybe scared, annoyed, or tired of having to unpack, unlearn and rebuild myself every single time. It’s exhausting knowing that I have to do so much to fix things about myself I never broke, but found broken. It’s tiring how terrified I get of some many things, how anxiety pushes me to a corner and traps me.
Reminding myself to breathe isn’t working as well for me, it’s getting harder to breathe.